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Positively “lucky”
The thing about a typical Monday when you’re a teacher, or at least a teacher at my school, I have to submit lesson plans to my principal. She checks over them and then gives us some quick feedback when she returns them. The feedback is usually a hand scrawled note on the paper copies that… →
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Mental Health Set Backs
At the deepest point of my depression, when the dark red razor cuts lined my forearms and I wasn’t sure if there would ever be a time when cutting myself didn’t make me feel temporary relief from the emotional distress I felt on a daily basis, I turned to my psychiatrist. A man who saved… →
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Random thoughts on fitness
I’m a little scared to step on the scale. I’ve gained back a few pounds over the holidays and I’m not sure I really want to know if I’ve been successful in working them off. But what I am sure of is that my doctor is proud of me. He said this to me, along… →
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Not as long as I thought
The past two months have not only seen my physical health improve, but also the relationship with my sisters. The improvement in my relationship with them came about through a mutual anger at our mother. I spent this time not talking to her, and talking about her to my sisters. And while we are related… →
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Keep Going
I started exercising again on November 4th, and I haven’t stopped since. I’m driven to keep going out of fear. Each rest day that I take makes me afraid that I will get lazy again and lose all motivation. Of course, the 15 pounds I have lost is plenty of motivation too. Even at the… →
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“Get ugly!”
I don’t particularly like to drink Gatorade. It’s not a go-to drink for me, but the commercial they had on t.v. not too long ago motivated me in other ways. In my extended exercising slump, I would often feel pangs of regret when I would see something that reminded me of the fact that I… →
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Packing for the Apocalypse
It’s Sunday night, and I’m parked in front of the t.v. watching the last episode of The Walking Dead from the previous season. The new season will premiere in less than half an hour. I will admit to not having watched the series from the very beginning, but I have been a fan for the… →
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Unsung no more
One of my coworkers today had another chapter to add to the captivating drama of battling her ex-husband for custody of their children. She has shared much of this story with me over the past several years. It truly is a very frustrating experience for her, to say the least. Today, her ex took it… →
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Unfinished
Last year, a friend posted the link to a writing contest on Facebook. It was for a literary journal and they were looking for non-fiction essays. With dreams of winning the top prize, I knocked out the story of my mental health journey and entered the contest. I did that all in a matter of… →
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As Night Progresses…
….the melancholy increases. Watching the end of La La Land for the first time makes me teary. It’s going to be another one of those nights apparently. A therapy appointment today didn’t leave me as wrecked as my husband and I expected. The texts from my mother afterwards, however, did. This is a new sensation,… →