Write a letter to your 100-year-old self.
Writing a letter to my 100-year-old self is a pretty neat idea. As I have been reading all of my journals, I have noticed that it’s like my younger self is talking to me across time. Although, when I wrote in those journals, I didn’t know who would be reading them. In fact, I initially didn’t write with anybody in mind. I just wrote. As I got older, I decided that I wanted future generations to read my words and know what I was thinking. More importantly, I wanted them to know what was important to me. It didn’t change how or what I wrote, but I had an audience in mind. I’ve said it before, but reading the words of my inner child is very surreal.
With that said, writing to my future self knowing it is for me is interesting. I wonder if I should print this post? Will this website still exist in 58 years? It’s the reason I printed all of the initial emails my husband and I sent each other after we met online. I don’t have that same AOL email anymore. He does, but I don’t. Those precious words would be gone forever. But I digress. If I indeed reach 100 years of age, this is what I will read.
100-year-old Sarah,
I have one question, how are you? Truly. How are you? I hope the answer to that question is that you are happy, and you are healthy. I hope that you have completed therapy and found peace with the trauma you endured in the early years of your life. I want you to know that I tried very hard to make things better for you. At the time of this letter, I’m still trying. It’s a long process and so at 100 years old, I hope it was worth it. I hope you are enjoying your much deserved retirement. I hope you never stopped using your voice and did something amazing with it. I’m desperately trying to light the sparks for those amazing things now. Hopefully you have returned to your faith. But even if not, I hope you are content with what is in your heart. In the time you have left, never stop being who you are. I’m working hard to figure that out for you. Also, never forget, you’re worth it, and I love you.
Sincerely,
The starter version of you
And that’s it. I don’t know why that made me cry, but it did. I’ve been very sensitive to seeing references to your inner child/self. Lots of healing still to go, but as always, I’m here for it.
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