What does it say about me if my answer is that I’m not worried about the future? Would someone say that’s my privilege showing? That I should consider myself fortunate that I’m not worried about the future?
Certainly there are things I could be worried about. I live in the United States, the politics of my country right now are worrying a lot of us. There’s plenty that I should be concerned about and I truly am.
I have a job now, but I don’t want to work forever. Do I have enough money to retire on? Will I ever? Probably. But I’m not stressed about it right now.
I’m healthy, for the most part. Will I one day get sick with something like cancer or other debilitating disease? It’s certianly possible. I smoked for about 10 years of my life. Pretty heavily too.
My husband is my whole world right now. Could it be that one day he dies before I do and I’ll be left alone? The odds are 50/50 that he’ll go first.
All of these things are things that I could worry about. And I am justifiably concerned about all of them. But I wouldn’t say that I’m worried. The prompt asks what I am most worried about. That implies that there is something that stands out to me as a top concern above all else. Right now, it’s honestly none of these things. I am very much enjoying the moment in which I’m living. I’m happy. I have my husband with me. We are both relatively healthy. We have jobs that are allowing us to live comfortably. Granted, we do both have things that we would like to change. But at this point in time, I’m just not that worried. Call it whatever you will, but I’m just in a peaceful place right now. I haven’t been here before and I’m going to enjoy it as long as I can.
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