As a follow up to my earlier post about procrastinating on working on my book, I would just like to share this “proof of life/writing” post. I have spent the past 2 to 3 hours working on it.
I listened to my “high school nostalgia” playlist while I worked:
And I noticed myself making this face several times as I wrote:
I am leaning very heavily on my old journals for what I’m doing for my book and I’m only on volume 4. I was 15 in volume 4 and I was intensely boy crazy and madly in love with any boy who showed the slightest interest in me.
In fact, I just passed an entry where I described a Greek philosophy I learned about in school that I immediately connected and related to a boy that I was mildly obsessed with. Basically the philosophy was something like after time, something that you think is ugly will turn beautiful in your mind until it really does turn beautiful. It made sense to me because when I first met the boy I was obsessed with, he wasn’t all that attractive to me. But, after a while he was, well, who I was obsessed with. I’m pretty sure the Greek philosopher who came up with that one didn’t have 15 year old teenage girls in mind when he came up with it. But who I am to argue with philosophy?
Yep, that’s what teenage Sarah was thinking about 28 years ago around this time.
And of course, the thoughts that I have about all of that… to include what my therapist and I think is the reason for my intense boy craziness–other than typical teenage hormones–is what I will include in my writing.
I have 35 more journals to get through. Still a long way to go, but today I made more progress than I have in a while.
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