Let me allow this picture to tell you you everything you need to know about the day I’m having:
It is currently 12:30 pm. I’m on my lunch break at home. Usually when my break is over at 1:00, I go back to work. Not today. The yoga pants and slippers mean that I’m not going back after lunch. The fact that Ethan and Millie are playing and not just relieving themselves and running back inside means that I’ve been out here since I got home at 12:00
This is not a good day. The feeling of frustration I have about work and what I had to do yesterday to stand up for myself and not be run over by people who think they know how to be a good leader when it’s very obvious they have the wrong idea, has carried over to today. They aren’t aware that the moment I get hired somewhere else, I’m done. They also aren’t aware that I’ve been applying for jobs since November. It’s going to happen soon. And I’m not going to make it easy on them when I leave.
Granted, I recognize that hormones are probably playing a big factor in how I’m feeling today. But my feelings are valid and my feelings say I don’t want to go back to work this afternoon. It would make me much happier to stay home and pack up our Christmas decorations because the “as needed” anxiety medicine I took yesterday didn’t make it easy for me to function well when I got home from work.
So, nothing insightful on the blog today. Just a woman who is proud of herself for not hesitating for a single second to say what needed to be said to people at work who are probably tired of her doing that. But also just a woman who is tired of having to do that and the anxiety it causes. (Remember the Eminem song I quoted the other day? I was thinking some things yesterday and I said those things).
Hopefully I’ll be back on my game tomorrow friends.
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