• You Did Good

    Screenshot Saturday This was saved on August 14, 2021. Apparently I saved a lot of quotes like this in 2021. Ones about growth and change and not being like I used to be. But why?! In 2021, the second wave of hell had not yet arrived in my life. The first wave was when I…

  • People Change, Get Over It

    Thoughts on Mental Health Thursday I have changed over the past two years. I have written about it extensively on this blog. People change. Not always for the better, but in my case, it was a very good thing. Yesterday, a friend of mine who still works at the place I left two years ago…

  • Tools to Help

    Thoughts on Mental Health Thursday Whenever I am in a position to give advice about getting help for mental illness, I immediately think back to two resources that helped me tremendously. The first is this book, Cutting by Steven Levenkron I randomly came across this book when Josh and I were browsing Waldenbooks at the…

  • What is he doing now?

    5Ws Wednesday In the past, when I have posted on social media about my experience with mental illness, I sometimes get asked how I got through it. What did I do that helped me heal? My first answer is always that I had a psychiatrist who changed my life. I may have written about Dr.…

  • Work Was the Cure

    Talk About it Tuesday So apparently the mystery of why I have felt so off and not myself lately has been solved. Over the weekend, I had repeated episodes where I felt like crying for no reason. Where I didn’t feel like doing anything. I actually did cry a little when explaining this to Josh.…

  • The Littlest Step

    “Something Good” Sunday It’s difficult today to look back and find something good from this week. I’ve had some crazy fatigue this week and an all-around feeling of unmotivation. There are things that I want to do and yet, I haven’t even thought about doing them. I have a project where I want to reorganize…

  • An Easter Meal Prepared by All

    “Something Good” Sunday While I wasn’t initially all that excited about going to my sister-in-law’s house yesterday to celebrate Easter, it turns out that my “something good” this week is from the dinner we shared. Josh and I were originally supposed to host Easter at our house, but we just have too much work still…

  • Refreshed and Eager

    Thoughts on Mental Health Thursday I’ve said this before and it’s worth repeating…tired is an emotion. I don’t know what had me down and out the past two days. I was tired and yesterday I took a nap in the afternoon and still felt kind of out of it when Josh got home from work.…

  • Survivors, Not Superheroes

    Screenshot Saturday I captured this screenshot on June 26, 2021. Before my adult trauma started. Before my CPTSD diagnosis. I still had plenty of unhealed childhood trauma and I suspect that’s why I saved this. I recognized the effect that trauma had on me long before I sought the help of a therapist to heal…

  • The Kids Might Not Be Alright

    Thoughts on Mental Health Thursday Last night I was working on my book. I’m still in the transcribing journals phase and I’m on volume 6 (out of 39). These were around March and April of 1998, when I was in the 10th grade. The entries I focused on revolved around the awful rumor that started…